☆ Ducky's Room! ☆

 Today was a pretty sad day... Well, it was good at first... But then I dunno... I am okay I guess. I just didn't get to celebrate one of my favorite holidays today... But it's okay, I guess I really am too old for trick-or-treating, though all of my friends are out there doing it... I guess I don't deserve to, anyway, I'm not that great of a person...

On Friday, I will finally have a doctor appointment! I haven’t had one in a while, and when I get there, maybe I’ll finally find out if I am okay and get okay. I really hope I don’t do what I always do, I just really want help. Today I was screwing up, but working on my YouTube videos with Split is fun sometimes, and I feel confident in our new content! Stay tuned…

One of my best friends known as “BestBuy” is suddenly not being very nice to me again! Ever since he got a girlfriend, he has been so mean… I don’t like it when my friends are mean to me. There was a point in time when he was really bad… but this time I don’t know why he is being mean. I miss the old BestBuy! The BestBuy I knew that didn’t act like a gangster all the time… The BestBuy that was awkward and funny… The BestBuy that was known as Anthony! Please come back to me!

 So it was a normal day... Split was m aking me play with  the woman. She is nic kname d  Dee. I'm  lying. Toda y wasn't norm al. It 's never normal when Spl it is maki ng me play with  he  r. She is a pedophile.  She  say s  the guy  sh e  loves in her    bio  is  Sp  l  i   t.    i   ju s t   sa w   i t Some  ti m  e  s    it     fe  e ls   be t t er to  be  wr on g  ab  ou     t              th i n  gs. Wh  y    cou  l dn   't    I  jus  t b e   wr  o n      g W  h y c ould  n'   t I  jus  t be  wro  n   g W     hy  cou  ld n '   t  i just be  wr o n g...

Today me and Kia went to a cafe together. Then we saw Randy there! And... NICK WAS THE BARISTA. Randy came to Kia and they whispered to each other. After that, Randy took out his phone and started blasting Megalovania (Nick is scared of that song for some reason) and I think Nick quit after that! Then when Nick exited the counter, Kia came up to him with her phone and chased him out the cafe with a picture of Sans! XD The last thing I heard before he was gone was him screaming "KIIIIAAAAAAAA!!!!" It was so funny XDDD Me and Randy were just there laughing at all the chaos we've caused. But another employee kicked us out for all the racket we were causing... threatening to call the police... But it was worth it. The look on Nick's face was priceless! It's a very stupid thing to be afraid of. No it's not. Well, Nick is so much taller than us and could've easily attempted to scare us away somehow but he didn't. I love my friends. <3

 So me and Split are still together, and his little female friend is back. His lady friend. The woman... -_- He calls her a pedophile, yet he still has us all play together. I'm getting really tired of this. He gives her more attention than me and refuses to let her know that me and him are together. I know he has dated her before, which is illegal... Because he is only a few months older than me and she is literally in her 20s right now... They also have matching profile pictures which makes me really sad because he never matched with me... I told my friends about him and her and even they know something is wrong. I know it was a bad move to tell my friends about this, but still... :(

 I'm sorry. I just didn't know how to react. I still love Split. I'll stay with him no matter what. It was probably really hard for him. That's why he couldn't tell me. But 8674 is giving me sad thoughts. I wish she would go away, but any inconvenience causes her to make me have bad feelings. And now she's back. I hope the same thing doesn't happen again. For now, I'll write another time. <3

 No. Nothing about this is okay!! How could you just lie to the people you love?? That excuse is so stupid!! Today was okay, but then it kind of became bad... I don't know... I think I was wrong... Maybe I didn't have a crush... Maybe it was just another stupid feeling that I liked someone just because they talked to me everyday... That girl Split made me play with began causing some sort of drama, making him sad. Then I came to a realization that I was right; she was his girlfriend. Why didn't he tell me? Why would he keep this from me? And... she's... an adult..? Nothing about this is okay! I tried to talk to him about it but he just made up an excuse and took me out of the server which had evidence. My friend Randy is still in there though. He can tell me what else he finds... Randy really is my best friend. He's been my best friend for years and I know he wouldn't put me through as much pain as all these other people. Sometimes I wonder why I never got with ...

 Today is my best friend, Randy's birthday! My other friend, whom I call Bro (because she's my BRO, not brother, she's like my epic bestie!!) couldn't come today, so we'll all celebrate tomorrow. Randy has been my friend for so long, like maybe four years I think, maybe even five! He is really a great friend, and I don't understand why he gets bullied by a lot of people for his size and voice. He's actually really funny, smart, and kind... He deserves so much better, and that's my job! To give him much better! I remember the first time I introduced him to Kia, and they became besties too! I love my friend group so much! <3

 He technically asked me out... We were talking about being a couple and eventually we became one. I was only trying to cheer him up when he was talking about... stuff... that had to do with other people... -_- But anyways!! We are a thing now! However I could've sworn that girl he made me play with was his girlfriend... Anyways! Split is mine now! <3

The guy I was talking about last time... Let's call him Split! That is his username anyway... I sit with him in class, and I seem to have an effect on people...because he is like.....acting strange with me... And I love it... I'm glad he is comfortable with me. He appears to be comfortable. I think he is... I hope he is! This is the crush I was talking about. I thought he had a girlfriend, but he told me she broke up with him. He really is acting strange with me! Always hinting at something... Hehehe... I think I really, really like him! ^////^

 I don't know how or why, but I have a crush on one of my best friends... >////<   This is so weird, I haven't had a legitimate crush in like sooo longg...  I would say maybe I'm just confused...because I don't think they've done anything in particular to spark a crush... but apparently they have!!! ;-;  Eeehhhh I don't know what to do because I have tried getting rid of this little crush, but somehow the crush is intensifying!!!!! And we did talk about what it would be like if we were a Thingggg..... :P  And this really is a crush this time, not a forced thing, because he hasn't done anything gross to me, he's just really cool honestly... Even though there sometimes is an issue with understanding (very rarely, really), we get along. And for real. I think. I mean, I get along with him, I dunno if he's forcing himself to get along with me...I hope not. maybe he is the key! ahhhhh it's just a crushhhh what am I talking abouttt lollll.. >_...

Since I am making a lot of new friends, I am also gaining feelings for someone. He's so strange, but not as strange as me!

I am making a lot of new friends! I am very happy to be improving! A lot of people are talking to me, and so am I! I am talking to people! I'm so happy! Today was a good day! I'm glad to finally come out of my shell a little more! :)

 I'm scared of R... I don't like him anymore. He clearly doesn't like me too. I don't think he ever liked me. That's why I'm going to avoid him. He made me do things and I'm afraid something bad is going to happen if I keep talking to him. I don't want anything to happen. I don't need it in my life. No wonder my friends didn't like him. He is an everyone person. He has a goal. And I was part of that goal.