I Think I'm Gonna Cry

 No. Nothing about this is okay!!

How could you just lie to the people you love?? That excuse is so stupid!!

Today was okay, but then it kind of became bad... I don't know... I think I was wrong... Maybe I didn't have a crush... Maybe it was just another stupid feeling that I liked someone just because they talked to me everyday...

That girl Split made me play with began causing some sort of drama, making him sad. Then I came to a realization that I was right; she was his girlfriend. Why didn't he tell me? Why would he keep this from me? And... she's... an adult..? Nothing about this is okay! I tried to talk to him about it but he just made up an excuse and took me out of the server which had evidence. My friend Randy is still in there though. He can tell me what else he finds...

Randy really is my best friend. He's been my best friend for years and I know he wouldn't put me through as much pain as all these other people. Sometimes I wonder why I never got with Randy instead... I know Randy had a crush on me before but he's still supporting me on getting in a relationship at my school. Maybe it's because me and Randy go to different schools, but I still have feelings for Randy ever since he told me he liked me. How could I be so stupid and just brush away his feelings like that?

I'm sorry for this whole rant... I'm just going through a lot of emotions right now... I don't want to talk about Split or that girl anymore... I'm starting to resent the both of them right now...