I can't believe I'm letting myself reconnect

 I can't believe I'm trying to be friends with him and the other one again. After everything? Maybe I really am that desperate...

Sigh～

If I can't have someone then I will just have to do it myself.

I can't believe I try to make them feel sorry for me. I want to see it all within me and let them decide.

I don't want to believe I am pretending to do everything.

I can't even believe I'm playing the victim. Guilting is going too deep into my soul. I can't believe anything. I don't want to believe myself.

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