In Another Universe

 Wow, it's been a whole year since I've uploaded here! ^^;

The reason I'm writing here again is so nobody can really see it except for a few people that may stumble across this... which isn't gonna be a lot! :P

Usually people look at my real diary, and they look at my drawings and sometimes even read my entries! But here, not many people will do that because they don't know about it or even know who I really am! >_<

Anyway! I really wonder how things would've been if I had a different approach to love and feelings for people... Usually I fall in love terribly easily, and it's hard for me to fall out of love once we've connected ourselves to eachother. It's very common for people to be like this now, so I'm not weirded out by myself! But, what if it took longer for me to develop a crush?

What if it took me a while to show feelings for Split?

He probably only asked me out because I admitted I had a crush on him. What if I never showed that I liked him until after everything? What if I started developing feelings once I've rescued him? What if he asked me out after that? Would things be the same? Or would things be worse? Or even better? What if in another universe, we could actually love each other normally? Maybe I wouldn't ache every time he spoke about his past. Maybe I wouldn't be so sick every time he says he's gonna go to bed.

I know why I feel this way. It's because my feelings are too much. If you have too many feelings, you will overthink! I don't like overthinking. I wish I didn't have so much love in me. I wish I could develop feelings slower! Maybe my brain wouldn't be so harsh on me and expectant of everything. I want to take it all easy.

In another universe, I could've been a better girlfriend. Oh well!